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Fuck Off

Posted: September 23, 2012 in Community Ignorance, Emotions, Family, Racism

A lot of people in the east coast don’t know what Mexican-Americans deal with in the west coast. It was one of the reasons why I left California and had to leave Texas. The horrible racism there against Mexicans is horrid. Many don’t know that there were Jim Crowe Brown laws – Mexicans and Mexican-Americans were refused service, not allowed to live in certain area, not allowed in some stores, bars, schools and other establishments. The KKK hung my people as well. I went to a civilian high school for my senior year only. It was the first time I experienced racism to that extent. In the military we were all a bunch of poor people of color trying to make a living. My father won a scholarship to study engineering at the University of Southern California. When he went to his high school counselor they told him that Mexicans didn’t go to college. My father grew up very poor and sometimes all he ate were the strawberries he picked in the fields with his two younger brothers and his father. (My dad was 7 when he worked in the fields.) When I graduated from high school and was looking for work my white friend was offered a job in a bank and the only jobs I was offered were working in the fields, the cannery or as a cleaning person.

I’ve just found out that this racism is persisting – my mother didn’t want to tell me as she knew I would go ballistic. When I get to the hospital next week I will be ripping off some fucking heads off.

I am so glad my people are finally fighting back in places like Arizona. But, I will never be free of it as it started – the racism – against Mexicans here in the east coast. I thought I had gotten away from it. It’s not as bad here in NYC as there are so many other people here as well. It’s mostly in Long Island and Staten Island.

But, it’s here – it is everywhere.

I am so fucking sick and tired of it.

It’s my country. My people were here first.

Fuck off.

I’ve been watching a replay of the live coverage of the 9-11 event. I am forever grateful that I didn’t lose a loved on or even an acquaintance in the towers, the Pentagon or in PA. Though our government is not isolationist; our people, for the most part, are. The news is filled with a lot of the stupid, ignorant and racist things people in our country do. But, for the most part Americans are a ve…

ry kind, loving and wonderful people. We love a hero and we root for the underdog. Our country was built by underdogs – or at least France and the UK thought we were underdogs. We have a spirit of survival and will always rebuild. We are a country of optimists and not the pessimists that too often is portrayed by the GOP and the Tea Party. I believe one of the reasons why President Obama won even though he had no experience was his ability to pull deep into the hearts of the American people our deeply held belief that there is always hope.

For some 9-11 opened their eyes to what goes on around the world in our name. For others their fear created a deep hatred for others. I understand fear as I have had fear myself. But, it is what one does with that fear that makes them a great American. If one can look at their fear in the eye and grab hope instead of hatred a new society can be founded. I believe that is what is going on in the USA right now. The ultimate battle between hope and fear. Such deeply held convictions don’t die easily which is likely why this battled has been waged for so long.

Though I grew up in Europe as a child and teenager I was raised by Americans and my mother is a Brooklyn born and bred New Yorker – I was raised with the fighting spirit. Not a fighting spirit of battle with guns even though I was raised in the military but the fighting spirit that one stands up for their convictions and after dusting oneself off we turn and extend our hand to those who need help getting up.

But, this is not a uniquely American experience – there are so many examples of this fighting spirit throughout the world. We take the credit for the first country to fight against tyranny but there were others before us. The Magna Carta in Great Britain – Oliver Cromwell in the UK – and there are, of course, other examples throughout history. But, ours was the first country built by and for the people. The revolutionaries in Iran back in 79 said that many of them were influenced by ‘The Federalist Papers’. We have influenced so many others.

It is time for us to influence ourselves again. It is time for us to find out what kind of people we are. Are we a people of fear for which we lash out against others who are different or are we a people with hope who extend a helping hand to others?

We need to decide and decide soon as too many others are being hurt because of our inability to act. Rosa Luxemburg and Klara Zetkin said that in order to be rid of the strife of the world we need to be rid of borders between our countries. I believe we need to do that in order to grow as a people. But, before we are able to get rid of the borders between our countries be need to be free of the borders in our minds.

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I saw a post on FB where a butch lesbian is getting all excited about something that is including – studs, bois, butches, FTMs, AG, femmes  – um…..question here – FTMs? We are men. Where are the MTFs? Yet another ignorant person in our community.  My patience runs thin.